Today has been one of those lazy/productive days. P hasn't felt well since Friday, so when we got home from church, we both put our pajamas back on and lazed about the house. Once I got him settled in bed (he's fussy when he's sick!), I started doing stuff for me. I've found several opportunities that I truly feel God showed me today for a reason. I don't know if any of them are going to work out, but I definitely have put myself out there on a limb and am now waiting and trusting Him to let what needs to happen, happen. I am reaching the place I need to be for this leg of our journey...I think. Maybe it's because I know worrying about it isn't going to make anything happen any faster.
I wish everyone could have been at worship with us this morning!! It was exactly the message I've needed to hear for far too long. Zac talked about being an authentic Christian. I know I can talk a good game and can put on a good face when I need to, but am I really living Christ in every part of my life? James 1:26-27 says, "Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight reign on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." Well, I fall horribly short based on those standards! Taming my tongue...yep. Got me there! It's so easy to just let words or phrases or thoughts slip instead of actually thinking about what I say or think. Do I expect to be able to completely change how I talk and think overnight? Absolutely not. But I do know that I need to change. That's a good start, I think? I cannot continue to call myself a Christian if the words I say to others and the thoughts only I hear do not resonate the words and thoughts of Christ. I'm putting myself out here to keep myself accountable. If you read this, keep me accountable.
The second verse says to look after orphans and widows. Again, I fall terribly short! Since this is my blog, I can be as honest as I want to. Here I go. Both of my grandmothers and one of P's grandmothers are widows. When was the last time I went to see any of them? What kind of granddaughter, not to mention (again) Christian, am I when I won't even make the time to go see my own grandmothers even if it's just to see how they're doing?!?! Like I said, this morning struck all kinds of nerves with me. I left feeling like I had been there for a reason. I want to live like Matthew 25:35-36.
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